PCOS
Polycystic ovary syndrome (say "pah-lee-SIS-tik OH-vuh-ree SIN-drohm") is a problem in which a woman's hormones are out of balance. It can cause problems with your periods and make it difficult to get pregnant. PCOS also may cause unwanted changes in the way you look. If it isn't treated, over time it can lead to serious health problems, such as diabetes and heart disease. (Reference WebMD)
Endometriosis
Endometriosis (en-doe-me-tree-O-sis) is an often painful disorder in which tissue that normally lines the inside of your uterus — the endometrium — grows outside your uterus. Endometriosis most commonly involves your ovaries, fallopian tubes and the tissue lining your pelvis. Rarely, endometrial tissue may spread beyond pelvic organs. (Reference WebMD)
Painful, disorder, problem, unwanted, out of balance.
All words that explain exactly how I feel and how I am! Facial hair, overweight and hard to lose no matter what, irregular menstrual cycles, hormonal imbalance resulting in extreme mood swings are just a few examples of the daily struggles I deal with along with millions of others.
It is not fun nor normal to have to bust out the tweezers every other day and not for your eyebrows...but for your beard, chin and even neck and chest! You're in fear of shaving it because of the rumors that it will grow back thicker and darker (which I don't see how because mine is black.)
I want to have smooth, flawless skin that I feel comfortable getting close to my loved ones. Close enough without fear of them seeing the big, long hair that I missed because I wasn't in my car tweezing with the best natural lighting. When they see that huge cheek or chin hair, they are so turned off that they look like they just saw bigfoot making out with cookie monster....total turn off!
Adkins diet, Paleo diet, slim fast replacement meals....Yeah you name it, I've tried it. It doesn't matter that extra body fat I gain and keep every time I have a mentrual cycle, if THAT even happens and when it doesn't, I stress eat and gain even more.
Do I have the motivation to work out? haha....hardly the time to, let alone take a walk in this frigid weather. Do I dare try out that Zumba class I saw on a friend's facebook, which I'm sure I'll make an excuse not to go and if I do, I am embarrassed that I may run into someone I know that is in great shape and then will make me feel inferior....
I'm at my wits end with trying to be NORMAL! I'm tired of the cards I was dealt with my female anatomy and I need a cure. I need some help and understanding. I need people to understand that I don't always feel well and that I have mood swings, not by choice.
I need people to understand that when you tell me to be patient and not stress, that I will get pregnant when the timing is right, that it drives me absolutely bonkers and all I want to do is have you walk a day in my shoes to get why I am a tad obsessed with charting, Ovulation tests, pregnancy tests, etc! It's not that easy to just take that advice!
I need to learn to let go and not have these conditions own me, to fight back and make the best of it. No matter what I do, it's going to be there and I will no longer be defined by my conditions. I will no longer let it consume me. I will tweeze as needed, shave as I please. I will get in better mental and physical shape with what I can control. I will be more intimate because my husband is in love with me, not my facial hair. I will try that Zumba class.
I will BEAT PCOS and ENDOMETRIOSIS! I will NOT let it consume ME!
If you or anyone you know struggles with female issues, I'm here to listen; vent your frustrations in the comments below but also know that there are support groups out there. PCOS Cyster Diva's on Facebook is one of my personal support groups! Feel free to like and help bring awareness to others who don't know about PCOS and endometriosis.
